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*Trigger warning: there’s a picture of a clown in this post

 

 

clown

I have started cleaning house.
I’m going to be brutal. (No, really…)

Then two days ago I found this.
It belonged to my twin brother.
Why I have it, I cannot answer.
(Mostly due to temporary paralysis, and now I just can’t remember).

But it is,
truly,
the stuff of nightmares.
(And italicized, centralised, poetic importance.)

And I swear, I heard some synapses burn out when I saw it. And others that absolutely refused to be created…

(Also, if you can, take a moment to listen to this…
oh my…)

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      Really? I’m afraid I am not one of those people πŸ™‚
      And I wish I could answer positively to your lovely comment, but it actually made me shiver when I saw it. Something deep inside me recoiled…
      it’s so interesting the way some things set off the buried within us!

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        I’m with you! Clowns are not even funny, not ever. I’m not a fan of balloons either. Clowns who make balloon animals are just wrong… x I once wrote a blog about this very thing. Say No To Clowns!

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          Oh my gosh, I could hear that balloon squeak as I read this, shudder, but I was laughing too!
          I agree, they aren’t funny. They’re tragic and creepy, imho.
          Thanks for your great comment πŸ™‚

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    I almost feel sorry about that clown. There is something about him. I guess that’s the trap with clowns. You feel sorry for them and the next thing you know they are killing you. Not softly.

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      I love your comment. I agree…they do seem like such tragic figures…it was a complex myriad of emotions conjured when I saw it (and thanks for making me laugh out loud. I also, now, have a song in my head I haven’t thought of in ages πŸ˜€
      Btw, I love your gravatar and profile, very much enjoyed reading that.)

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        Thank you very much!
        I am glad I made you laugh! The song came to me while I was writing the comment and then stayed for the next of the day. It’s still here now (like a persisting clown).

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    Too late…curiosity got the better of me and my Pandora eyes found the image…. 😫
    In Bellingham, Washington there is a cafe with clown paraphernalia in the bathroom. I kept the light off.
    Finding toilet paper was secondary to not seeing anything at all.
    That song is amazing!
    What passion… he is like a John Legend but with 500% feeling!

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      haha that is a whole other blog post on the psychology of warnings…

      oh dear, your clown encounter made me laugh and cry πŸ™‚
      I am so glad you listened to it, I am kind of addicted to it. Oh my gosh, that voice… I did a post months ago with another one of his songs. Love it!

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      You are welcome! I am kind of thoughtful that way…
      Hey, does that mean you typed that with your eyes closed? Wow, just another talent of yours!! 😡

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          oh hahaha I am sorry, I thought you were being facetious and it really made me laugh.
          Don’t feel bad, don’t read anything you don’t want to. I did put that warning there as a legit warning, and also as a silly commentary on maybe I wasn’t doing the warning part right…
          😲

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    few things bother me but if they do it bothers me in a big way. I am not telling it publicly but that one thing makes me go exactly as you describe, i am really paralysed with unspeakable fear. no matter how cute people say it is the things that make us recoil, they are not cute, they are freaking scary!

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      (I may have exaggerated slightly because that is my sense of humour, cough, 😁) but I agree. When I saw this unexpectedly, it really caught me off guard. And it makes me so uneasy.

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        haha your humour is contagious Vanessa! I love the way you write, it’s a straight off the cuff and very authentic. My mum has an aversion to some soft toys too and when my kids were younger and had left them out she’s be upset to see them on her living room sofa staring back at her! Must be something in our psyche that cant deal with these images.

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          Oh thank you! I am so glad you do!
          Yes, it’s funny about that…my mother has an old doll she adored as a child, and still does. It is so creepy, I can’t stand to look at it. I love that she still loves it, she has such an adorable, pure heart.

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            I collected dolls for sometime too and understand the attachment but I had grown out of it quite early. oh bless her sweet heart for still seeing the beauty in those dollies.

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    Clowns are wonderful Vanessa and I love this one. He has cute Chucky style eyes. They can stare at you wherever you stand πŸ™‚

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    Like your style, Vanessa, πŸ˜ƒ especially those synapses, and the crosses for eyes that mean cartoon death. I understand that if you rest with your mind blank for about 20mins new synaptic connections will form at random, because your brain is worried that you’re not thinking enough. That’s my explanation anyway. 😜

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        Sorry, my bad ambiguity, I should have said my “explanation” referred to why more connections appear, ie the brain being worried, and anthropomorphizing the brain is worse than wood ducks. It was just a random nerd comment. If your brain is truly still and you’re still awake, I think the new connections might cause visions and so on, like ghostly ducks asking me why I’m typing this nonsense. πŸ€“πŸ€“

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          haha Steve, I did get what you meant 😊that even when i was paralysed from fear, and still, nothing happened. The paralysis was so great even my brain was prevented from the act of worrying about itself, well, going by your explanation… which is hilarious. Long story short, you don’t need to apologise. It appears the problem is my ambiguity, not yours. Unless, I’m not getting things at all. i’m kind of good at that too πŸ€”πŸ™ƒ

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