So here’s a thing, our lives have taken an interesting turn because of a cancer scare for my husband. He has had pancreatitis for years, and we were told a long time ago, he most likely will be a candidate for cancer at some point. Now he has growths in his pancreas. One is not currently cancerous, we are hopefully finding out more soon about the other one. We are remaining optimistic at this point. But they are large growths and one of them is in an inconvenient place and we will still have to make decisions on what to do about them.
The last few weeks have been quite a roller coaster, as we pondered me being a widow much sooner than we ever anticipated. I won’t lie, it scared me. It also scares me what my husband could potentially go through (believe you me, I have signed every petition I have come across to have medical marijuana legalised here. It’s reprehensible to me, the pharmaceutical strangulation that goes on. But that’s an angry poem for another time). Now we are not trying to think along those lines, but our world has truly been shaken, and I see everything so differently.
I want to thank some of my WP friends for your support and prayers, I am so grateful. I know it has made a difference to our peace of mind.
Naturally, I have been pondering the preciousness of life and today a number of things had me thinking about suicide. Tonight I opened some mail from Lifeline Adelaide. Apparently, eight Australians take their own lives every day. I can’t help thinking that that is a conservative statistic just based on what we have seen/heard since we have moved here.
I am sure there is no one reading this who hasn’t had suicide impact them in some way.
I don’t know what the answers are. But I’m sure we can agree that social media perpetuates so many myths about people that certainly don’t help the situation.
From our life in church ministry, (and our own lives of course) I can assure you that we have found:
- Everyone is broken. Everyone. There is no such thing as the perfect person/couple/family/life. You are not alone.
- Sometimes your family is not your family. Don’t be beholden to or manipulated by your abusive family just because you are blood relatives. And certainly don’t be staying because of vows you have made. The abusive person has already well and truly broken those vows. And it is not your fault they are abusive. It is not your fault.
- Remember that what you see on social media is only a tiny snippet of the full picture, if at all. That apparently well put together person could be in real pain behind the mask.
- Our culture, generally, doesn’t respect the elderly too well, but they have incredible stories and wisdom to share. You may be surprised at what someone has endured, and there may be a point of connection you had no idea about.
- It’s an INSANE miracle that you even exist. And not just that you are made up of matter that emits energy, but you are alive. With consciousness. Statistically, that is beyond comprehension. It’s a freaking miracle. (And if you want to read an article that can blow your mind even more about how amazing it all is, check this out:
Riddle of matter remains unsolved From article: ‘”All of our observations find a complete symmetry between matter and antimatter, which is why the universe should not actually exist,” explained Christian Smorra, first author of the study.’)
- We all have our own opinions about existence and spirituality, or the lack thereof, but there is one thing I stick to – I am not competing with you. I have no interest in that whatsoever. Life is short, and profound, and despite all, there is Love. And I sincerely hope, that if you are ever in the darkest time, you will remember that you are not alone.
- If you are in Australia and you do need to speak to someone urgently, Lifeline’s number is 13 11 14. Their website is: Lifeline Australia