ellipsis (part five)

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wednesday (part one is here)

 

 

Staring at the blank page he wondered about the small holes (they were perfectly round), and how they got there.
If he tore at their edges a little, gently, of course, would he find the source of his haunting?

And, of course, he always woke at that moment. One of the greatest of human accomplishments, waking at the “wrong” time. Addition: always.

While busy eye rolling to himself, he sub consciously made some tea.

 

someone used to call her the diving girl. a misheard lyric. like her, she felt. (part six is here)

 

 

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34 thoughts on “ellipsis (part five)”

      1. Reply
        Jo says:

        Oh… stray bullets. My old warehouse (about 15 years ago now) was in a much dodgier part of town. That had a whole bunch more ‘committed’ bullet holes.

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        In mind and out says:

        I look forward to how you draw these threads together. But however you weave them, I’m sure you will do it magically.

        I am ok thank you dear Vanessa. The start to the year has been busy, and I’m working on ‘streamlining’ my life. How is everything with you?

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          saynotoclowns says:

          Thank you!

          And stream lining is good! One thing I have learned in the life my husband and I have, dealing with a lot of death etc, is that, er life is short 🙂 And it has helped me prioritise and not just be “busy” because it is expected.

          I am doing okay, thanks. ❤

          (I wish shipping costs down our way weren’t so high, otherwise I would be buying books left and right, haha.)

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    ebonyandcrows says:

    I like how he subconsciously makes tea. I’ve done that so often, but mostly with coffee. As for having tired brains, I read a quote once that I have pondered often—“Sleep doesn’t help if it’s your soul that’s tired.”

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      saynotoclowns says:

      I love that quote!

      Yesterday for me illustrates your point perfectly…I woke up exhausted after a bad sleep, but still dragged myself to church. And I have to say, it was all just so beautiful and had such a calming effect on me, put the things in perspective that I needed, and also the balm I needed.

      And of course, some of the gorgeous things I read here on WP when I am so tired, that is all such a wonderful gift!

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          saynotoclowns says:

          We are, thanks. We have received the benefit of the cyclones and getting the rain we needed in our area. Other places, there has been flooding. So our February has not been as crazy hot as usual which has been lovely, actually. It is cyclone season up north, so it is to be expected…and there seems to be these cycles the farmers in our area told us about after we moved here…Just over ten years ago there was terrible drought, (when we moved here) and then it was broken with crazy amounts of rain that wasn’t forecast, and our river flooded. The bad part was that it was followed by plagues, can you believe it… we had a locust plague and cricket plague and a mouse plague, all in one year. Ugh…I so hope that will not be happening again!

          Hope you’re well?

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            ebonyandcrows says:

            Wow!! That sounds so biblical! 😮 Australia is really the land of crazy wild things—we have it so docile here in the Pacific Northwest compared to you. I am doing well, just a little worried about this coronavirus..I am scheduled to vacation in Scotland in May and I am hoping all will be well. I am happy to hear that you guys are doing alright though, that is indeed a relief.

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              saynotoclowns says:

              haha that is what we said! Good Lord, what time and place are we in?! lol. But of course, humans, and our problems, don’t ever really change, not fundamentally 🤷

              It’s funny about that…I used to marvel when I first went to the US, that the weather map always seemed so volatile, and my hubby would laugh at the Aussie weather map, because so often the whole country would just be ‘fine’. But then I realised that the reporting at the time was different too…the US reporting was more sensationalised, and the Aussie reporting was so nonchalant in comparison. Also because we weren’t nearly as populated. So there’d be crazy cyclones and whatnot that went mostly un noticed because they were areas that weren’t heavily populated.
              But the reporting has changed a lot in 20 years!

              Oh that sounds fantastic! Do you have connections in Scotland?
              And thank you!

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                ebonyandcrows says:

                You know, I would take the Aussie nonchalant reporting any day over the reporting we currently have here in US. I despise sensationalism.

                No connections in Scotland, I’ve just wanted to go there for years now. So I’m going alone but will be meeting up with a tour group and professional guide for most of the time.

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                  saynotoclowns says:

                  I’m so happy for you. I went to the UK 15 years ago, oh my gosh, I can’t believe it’s been that long, but anyway, I so much preferred Edinburgh to London. And the scenery, oh my. And I guess because it’s fun being a tourist, I didn’t care about the cold drizzle at all. Beautiful scenery.

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                    ebonyandcrows says:

                    I am tickled pink that you said you preferred Edinburgh to London!!! I visited London for the first time last summer and I was actually so disappointed with it. I think I was expecting to go back in time to the London of history that I have read so much about, and instead I got a bunch of modernity with some scattered bits of history here and there. So perhaps a lot of my disappointment stems from my expectations, but I also just didn’t fall in love with the spirit of the city. Contrast that with how deeply I fell in love with Rome when I first visited and well, there is simply no comparison. I am eagerly looking forward to Scotland though and have also read so much about it—I can’t wait to dive into history in the flesh!!

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    Watt says:

    Well, this is incredible! I hope he does find the source if his haunting, and I hope the tea gives him enough fuel to carry on forward, and the strength to recognize his power of his hauntings. Really, truly amazing piece Vanessa.

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    Steve Simpson says:

    Your page-turner resonates with me Vanessa, and like the other commenters, I’m curious. 😺 Tearing gently I have tried many times, and neither succeeded nor learned the lesson.

    Do we wake up when our subconscious doesn’t have the answer? And continuing with pointless curiosity, I guess we must dream as we fall asleep, before we descend deeper, but we don’t remember because in effect retrograde amnesia erases that memory, unless something suddenly wakes us, like, er… aliens.

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      saynotoclowns says:

      Hey Steve! How is this new year treating you?
      I’m so happy you called it a page-turner! Thank you!
      yes…the gentle tearing…

      This is a good question…it is rather a fascinating process, isn’t it…and that it is such a cleansing process as well.
      I do tend to remember a lot of my dreaming upon waking, as I am a terrible sleeper and wake a lot unfortunately. I am curious how often er aliens have interrupted yours?

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        Steve Simpson says:

        I think you wake in a REM cycle, and it’s true about waking many times, less deep sleep, and you remember a lot. In my case it’s mostly forgettable. Aliens wake me less often than you’d think; possible aliens, fairly frequently. I probably told you about living high up in an apartment block in São José dos Campos and being woken by weird flashing lights and strange crackling sounds outside the window in the early hours. I thought “flying saucer,” but a light switch in a nearby room with a window was short-circuiting intermittently. I was relieved. And disappointed.

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          saynotoclowns says:

          No I don’t believe you have told me that story. I love where your thoughts went immediately. haha
          I sleep with an eye mask now, which has scared both of us in the night, when we both forget I am wearing it. Mixed blessing. Like so many things!

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